A Pretty Song
by Mary Oliver
From the complications of loving you
I think there is no end or return.
No answer, no coming out of it.
Which is the only way to love, isn’t it?
This isn’t a play ground, this is
earth, our heaven, for a while.
Therefore I have given precedence
to all my sudden, sullen, dark moods
that hold you in the center of my world.
And I say to my body: grow thinner still.
And I say to my fingers, type me a pretty song.
And I say to my heart: rave on.
Some days I feel frustrated imagining that wellness is not here yet and it has been so long already. Other days are a constant renegotiation with my body and my body responding to my nudging – which makes me think yay, I am in fact better. Only until the next slump, of course. And this unfortunate cycle repeats.
Healing is, and has been, a non-linear journey filled with good days, bad days and awful days. Today was an awfully painful one. Part of healing and working on healing is hoping that tomorrow will be (might be?) better. The struggle for me lies in remembering this in the moments of complete frustration and being gentle with myself. I often don’t get it right. I am working on it.
I have been wanting to try out some ragi flour in cookies for a while. The fibre content in them is great and I really do like moving away from the other flours to the locally available ones. So much cheaper and locally sourced is always great! These easy to make ragi cookies were a happy start for me!
1 cup ragi flour
2 tablespoons cocoa powder
1/4 cup milk (of any kind)
2 tablespoons of curd (can use epigamia’s lactose free curd to make the recipe lactose free)
2 tablespoons of honey and some jaggery (depending on how sweet you like!)
A bit of flax seeds (be generous)
1 teaspoon of baking powder
1/3 cup of olive oil
1 teaspoon of cinnamon and nutmeg
Mix the dry ingredients together first and then add the remaining ingredients to it. I used my hands to mix it. The batter once smooth can be made into balls and pressed down with two fingers.Then put it into the oven at 180 degrees celsius for 10-15 minutes.
Once cooled, these cookies can be eaten with all things hot/cold. Yum. Yum.